mmm… More free coffee. I was going to try and not drink any coffee to see if it really is affecting me but man oh man we are doing a lot of PowerPoint today, so a coffee is absolutely necessary. I mean Necessary. So I went and got a free one. :) I tell you I am going to toot the free coffee and hot chocolate horn till I am blue in the face. w00t So I went to Nikita’s after training yesterday with Scotty and Ben for a coffee, because Scotty had double booked, which was fun I got to sling digs and what have you at Scotty which was something that I haven’t been able to do for a long time, with his departure to Montreal. And all. But I digress, Miranda picked me up after a while and we drove about so she could take a break form her paper. It is funny cause if any one has ever seen the apple switch ads with Ellen Feiss the crazy blood shot eyes and stuff I am completely reminded of this every single time Miranda says “my paper”

So I thought it would be cool to do a little re-watch of the silly ad and well it isn’t online at www.apple.com/switch so I figured that I would do a quick search for it else where only to discover there is this little Ellen Feiss Cult that have erected entire sites and other stuff devoted to the bleary eyed student. Seriously. ellenfeiss.net But anyway I thought that I would post the video so people can giggle.

So I have just returned from getting my self another FREE hot chocolate. And I am convinced that these keyboard trays are going to help kill me with Carpel tunnel. They are so crazy low, K now it is on the desk and I am saying fuck the tray and it is slightly better. Well it is all good because My Hot chocolate is free. :) Way back in the day when I worked at Converg-ass I most likely stuck about three to four paychecks in to the damn vending machines in the year that I worked there, so needless to say I am truly excited about the whole FREE part of the Free Hot chocolate. Anyway we are learning some of the tools that are used here, but there isn’t going to be any hands on use of these tools for at least a while which makes it hard to remembers what these crazy cryptic codes mean when you can only watch them on an overhead., But what can you do. :) Anyway Miranda and I (Well mostly Miranda) worked out a neat and reasonable way to price the wedding packages last night. So we have legitimate reasons to charge what ever we charge we are not just pulling numbers out of our ass and calling it good. This is really neat cause when some one phones up and says that they would like X package but they don’t/do want a certain part of the package we can at a glance know what to take off or add to the price. As apposed the saying ahhh well I will knock off X amount with out having any rhyme or reason to it. This will ensure that all our pricing systems are simple and based on some sort of plan that has outlined guides to costs and what have you. Miranda is amazing. So ya tonight we have to make these pretty and PDF them to send out to these people that keep emailing us with these questions. I also have to finish the ruckus site, finish our website, finish the GB’s photos from the last three shoots, go thought the photos that I have taken this month, and come up with viable print packages that are based in the same kind of logic that the wedding packages have, and work out a whole bunch of business stuff. Anyway I am taking off again.

So here I am at in the training lab having a free hot chocolate. FREE!! It is good times I tell you. I am having coffee break from the training where I went and talked to fillip for a while, and now here I am drinking it. Ya. I am going to have email this to my self because I forget what the URL is to get to the Movable type login screen on our server. I hope to finish all the George Bushes Photos tonight and we may go for coffee and 3.1415926535897932384626433832795… with Mr. Jackson who is back from Both Montreal and Vancouver, but will have to see how Miranda is doing on her papers that need to be done and such.

So Ya after work today, I came home and got ready to go for a photoshoot with The George Bushes. It was a quick shoot that could have been longer but they had other plans for later so we were sorta on the clock. But I got a couple of good shots none the less. Anyway I am sleepy and should go to bed :)

So I am sitting in the training room at That place where I work on my first day drinking coffee and having lunch. I am not really hungry since I haven’t really done anything all day but sit in a chair but it is lunch none the less. The last few weeks have been hellishly busy. Cause you see Sundancer & I decided to host X-mas dinner for one of her sides of the family, so that multitude of household renovations and what have you really had to be done by Boxing day. Which did happen (I was only up to 7am the day before.) But Ya our house is basically finished there is a few things that need to be done to it yet but done nonetheless. Anyway we hosted dinner at our place, which worked out surprisingly well, there was plenty of room and the food was great. And I was half cut from about noon on :). So after the family left for home we fired of to New City to see the George Bushes play. I mean there was other bands there as well Like Old Reliable and other that escape my memory at this moment, but we were there to see The George Bushes. I took the camera and Got some more great photos. After they played Erin (from the GB) thought it may be cool to get up on to the marquee in front and take photos of them in front of the Sign so I after a quick run home to dump the camera I came back to see what we could do. The owner however didn’t think that it was such a good idea to stick a drunk band and Photographer up above a bunch of really hard cement. Which in retrospect was most likely for the best Any how. I am gonna go.

Talk later

So I spent an entire evening at Keegans with smoking fast internet and I didn’t even fashion out anything that resembles a journal entry. So here I am at home writing a quick note to say what I am up to. Tomorrow the car gets to go in to Westside. I am hoping that they can do something with it and its rough idling and poor running. I am also going to be going to Ruckus tomorrow as well. I haven’t really much else to say so I will leave it at that.

Today Miranda and I slept till noon, got up went for breakfast at Route 99. Man that place is such a crazy greasy spoon template but good eggs Benny. We then proceeded to run about and shop for things that we need for X-mas. It wasn’t that bad actually. I didn’t yell at a single person, I didn’t run past people mumbling things like ‘fucking simpletons, or slow ass muther fuckers.’ I didn’t growl nor kick any children, and when there was a cart in my way I calmly moved out of the way instead of pushing it violently into a mid isle display. We even went to Wal-Mart. I made it though 45 min of Wal-Mart with out killing anyone. Maybe I have learned to be calm under pressure this year. Maybe sleeping till noon agrees with me. Who knows?

Well I just got back from Seedy’s Where I was taking photos of The George Bushes. You see I got a call from them this afternoon wondering if I could come to the studio where they would be rehearsing and take some photos, and to their show tonight and take some more. To which I said Of course. So Miranda and I went out for a spot of food at Charles smart, and then to Black box studios off of whyte ave to watch the GB’s play. We apparently were not the only media that was to attend this event for a reporter from CBC’s The national was also there to do a little interview and a bit of video footage. It will be on the National this coming Thursday so find some one with a TV and tune in. I shot about 150 shots of the rehearsal and Miranda and I fired of home for a bit before I walked over to seedy’s for the show. The show was awesome and I have to say That I really like Seedy’s It is a groovy little bar. I ended meeting a bunch of people and running into people that I often do not see out side of Keegans. But I am sleepy geepy so I am of to bed.

Well I realize that I haven’t posted a real post in like 20 days, I have been lazy when It comes to journal entries. If you look at my archives you can see that I always have these gaps at this time of year. I think that this will be the first year since I started this that I will have at least one normal post each month through out the entire year. It is silly really because this time of year that I should be posting all my random thoughts because it is the time of year that I need a lot of thought organization. Starting about mid November every year I start to look at what I have done in the past year. It is sort of a yearly audit on my self that I perform every year. I have preformed it ever year for as long as I can remember. This is the time of year that I am not much more then a bitchy asshole to all those around me (sorry Miranda) Now combine this year end audit with that bullshit known as Christmas (which for those who know me is on the very top of my hate list, far above talkative movie watchers, and stupid questions) and we have a fool proof recipe for disaster. I am bitchy because it is in this year end audit that I look back at how bloody lazy I was during the year. It is when I look at my accomplishments and realize how they could be totally better. It realizing that I am another year older and another year has gone by with me not accomplishing as much as I wanted to. Every year I am harder and harder on my self because I am one year closer to being the old man that shows the meter reader pictures of my colonoscopy

This year is harder then most because I had a lot of tough goals and as always I came up extremely short in accomplishing most of them. I hate to sound trite or what have you, for I am not a tortured artist or anything, but I had such a great desire to create this last year and I totally failed to harness any of that, in anything that I really think is good. I don’t know maybe I am not cut out to be creative or something but I certainly don’t know where that leaves me, because I have always been incapable of holding a career job or anything. All I have ever had was this stupid desire to create stuff. I have these intense periods of joy and even more intense ones where I am ready to just call it quits and do nothing but sit my fat ass on a second hand couch, and watch TV, eat Potato Chips, and work at my stupid job at a gas station to pay for the couch, full cable and Doritos. I don’t know Maybe I just need to focus more on the things that I want to accomplish. I want to play more guitar, take better pictures, paint something that I am proud of, learn German, finish editing my films, go to see more bands, meet new people, hang out with the people that I already know, write more, finish writing what I have already started, finish my degree, open the photo studio, I want to weld hunks of iron together and make really big and heavy sculptures, the list goes on and on and on…. But most of these things are on my list form last year, and some from the year before, and even more from the year before that. I was thinking about the things that I wanted to do when I was a kid, you know all those dreams and desires that even the most apathetic of us had when we were younger, and I realized that I didn’t have a single dream when I was a kid, I instead had like 50. Someone once told me I could do anything that I wanted to and well I took it very seriously and I have been juggling the dreams ever since. The problem is I f I had one desire that I always had and spent all this energy on that one thing I would have something to show for it. But I don’t, here I am 27 years old and I have fuck all to show for anything that I have done because it sort of seems that I am running in circles when I should be going in a straight line. But as always I will forge ahead and give it all another try, and maybe this year will be the year that I move forward.

Boo!!! :) i will return soon I promise